forgettable

Some days I watch the sun like the world has stopped turning. 
Other days I resent it for being so bright. 
Then come the days of neutrality where the happy and sad days blend together like gray and a shade of yellow that isn't trying hard enough. 

Eiche

I am a tree and i'll grow however tall you'll allow me.

you pollute my world but i supply you with air in return.

you let me grow and I touched clouds.

you called me beautiful, I believed you.

you sat under me and I protected you.

But when winter came... and it got cold....

you chopped me down and used me to ignite your flame. 

3 Times

There's a time when you think, you say, and you know. 


you say you love him
you think you love him
you know you don't

Enough

I used to tap my fingers together as if every wrong tap could put a hole in my body.

-one, two, three, four, three, two, one.

As if that would prevent any danger.

Every panic attack, every mood swing, every hurting moment. 

like piano keys that stick.

You become scared of every moment you're yet to experience.

like the world is engulfing you.

Days gone by

The sun it carried me

From end to end

My hair, it blew,

In the wind

I was so happy 

my soul was free

all the world was given to me

The day you left 

Blue Birds

Eventually,

The birds will start to sing.

calmly I waited for the sun to fall

I sat silently beneath the cedar trees.

And when the darkness became too much  

You came and sat silently right beside me.

It was you along with I against the world  

We  sat silently beneath the cedar trees

When the birds sang softly to the wind.

Then one day you you decided to leave.

Still I sit beneath the cedar trees 

 And The birds will sing again,

Eventually.  

Hollow

You're all grown up
Taller now, but you look the same
You used to hold me, love me
Somewhere in your mind I know you remember 
Your eyes are empty now
Your words don't quite know where they're going
You've gotten used to it, this world you're in
Only, you're not quite the same 
I used to think it could be temporary
That you could come back to the surface
It's been years since then
And even though you're close, 
I wonder where you are